feeling like crap, despite my joy from God

so i pretty much feel like crap because i got an e-mail from my mom and i made her feel like crap and i don't really know how to fix it, because i thought i was fixing it, but it seems like if i would have never told anyone then everything would be better, except of course with my spiritual struggle, but at least then i wouldn't have hurt my family, so would it have been better to withhold the truth from them forever? ugh...i just don't know, and nobody reads my blogs, so of course no one will help unless i actually talk to them, wonderful!